I didn’t watch the BET awards live. Why? I gave up on BET years ago, and I didn’t want to be disappointed yet again. But I was slightly moved when I heard that Chris Breezy had a breakdown during his performance.
Oh, that sounds mean, you were glad he broke down?
Before seeing the video, I was happily anticipating the fact that Breezy had real emotion. We remember his ‘apology’ video right? #fail
When I learned of his emotional challenge during the performance, I immediately thought less about Michael and more about what SONG Chris broke down to. Man In the Mirror. Come on, you don’t get more textbook publicity stunt than that. Am I saying it was a publicity stunt – no, it just seemed insincere to me.
I argued with a friend.
HIM: Maybe it was the emotional toll of the performance. MJ was such an influence on his life.
ME: Maybe it was Karma. You know, the pressure of finally understanding that he beat a woman in such a barbaric way. At some point you have to examine yourself. Ironic it was this song that did it to him.
We went back and forth.
HIM: You don’t know what she said to him.
ME: I don’t care. That type of behavior is never acceptable. You have to be in control of yourself and ultimately know right from wrong.
But after seeing the video, I was again disappointed. I’m not convinced this display of emotion had anything to do with Michael Jackson, and if it did, it wasn’t very sincere. It’s like he recognized he needed to be crying for Michael, but really was coming into the lesson that HIS teacher was sending from the grave.
Later, actress Sheryl Lee Ralph expressed my sentiment.
That’s really all I have to say about it. I was never a huge Chris Brown fan. Sure, his music made me dance, but his behavior was appalling. Yes, we all make mistakes. Yes, we should all be forgiven. But this incident will always live in the back of my mind. I’m not trying to punish Chris. I just want him to be sincere with his emotions. Because there is no bigger battle than the one he’s facing inside.